"Today is the day that you get the recognition for all your hard work.

It might be quiet, and it might be from an unexpected source, but it will come."

Ugh, the cramps! That's a good sign I keep telling myself, but they are making me feel like throwing up.

So the horoscope has been saying good things and it's been turing out to be right. Got the car back. $335 to fix the brakes, but Nate's gonna do it thank god. Then the transmission was updated. Who knows yet. Got the last interview today. Really excited and nervous. What the hell am I getting myself into? One full time and two part time jobs with no days off. The court job is only temporary, but who knows for how long. When that one ends then it's only 2 afternoon-night jobs, so days will be open. I just need to get through this, but it'll be a lot of money that will help tons. Ugh.

Damn nightmares. It's the same one of trying to lie and getting "him" back home so I can escape, but yet lying could get me killed. Haven't heard anything about him going to the parole board and I was thinking of emailing his mom and asking, but maybe I don't want to. Another thing, after the week of training I'm hoping I can use the system to look him up and really find out things I was never told. I need to know, but yet at the same time I don't and maybe I just shouldn't know. When will the being scared for my life end? I hate it. Thank god for Mia. I don't think I would be here if I didn't have her there. We kept each other safe and our bond is really really deep. Sounds fruity, but honestly, she's done a lot and saved me. I still wanna kill him for hurting her. She's more than a child would be to me. Ugh I'm getting worked up. Time to quit.